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Newbie? [03 Sep 2006|08:37pm]

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[14 Nov 2005|12:24pm]

So, last night I had a major self-esteem blowout. I'm going to do a liquid fast for a couple of days, see how long I can last. The problem for me is evening-nighttime, so I'm going to try to keep myself occupied during that time to avoid getting hungry. But I can't look at thinspiration pictures or stuff like that since my boyfriend will be around.

Anyway, if anyone wants to join me, I'll be on AIM and I can respond to comments via email, so I'm hoping I'll be able to talk to people. So please comment if you want to join me!


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[11 Nov 2005|07:45pm]

Icons for you :)

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[11 Nov 2005|06:15pm]

Hi...I'm Katie. I'm 19, I just started college. I live with my boyfriend. I've been struggling with my weight for several years.

I don't really know what else to say.

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[14 Sep 2005|06:48pm]

sorry havnt been on
im sick..well i always am but u know..

well i cutyesterday after 3 weeks of constant crying and trying not to cut

i cried to the point where i threw up and had a nose bleed the other day

i did bulbs (nitrous oxide) on saturday with lunchbox and kieran and it was fun. i passed out twice. hahha ur not meant to pass out but because it takes away iron, and im already iron deficient, i fainted..haha it was fun.....

lia finally got in contact with me. i missed her. i love her so much. i was so worried.

school is so hard. im finding it hard to get back into the study rhythm. i have to get my head down but raving is so distracting. i cant wait till 12th nov when its all over and i can go outttttttt

i havnt lost weight..i only ate fruit and a piece of chocoalte cake today.. bad eating the cake but at least that was it.

i hate life.
i want to die.

kieran got his ps. woot! now i dont have to walk everywhere

i am seeing bunney and jacqui soon. i have to be skinny!!!!
i cant take being fat n emore :(
i hate myself. i want to cut away all the fat and slit my wrists till i cant bleed anymore.

i have a headache....

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[08 Sep 2005|01:46am]

i have lost weight. i havnt weighed myself but i look thinner and my boyfriend has noticed too.
school is really stressing me out

i havnt cut in about 3 weeks! i think?
im going okay

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MY PICS... ;) [04 Sep 2005|03:01pm]

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/pranapeter/my_photos MY PICS...
CW: 110lbs, 5'11"... I want to live without food...
http://blog.lide.cz/breatharian/english MY PR-ANA BLOG...
http://breatharian.tribe.net OUR SUPPORT GROUP...

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Hi from ANA GUY... [29 Aug 2005|07:22pm]

Hi ya all,
I'm Peter and I'm ana too, I'm happy about it, though :-), I'm 120 lbs and 5'11"...
My goal is to become an Breatahrian - person who lives only on AIR, WATER, SUNLIGHT and PRANIC ENERGY from meditaions & yoga...my blog:
http://blog.lide.cz/breatharian/english What you think...?? take care now,
SAY NO TO FOOD /drug/!!!

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un question [22 Aug 2005|11:44am]

What is considered technical emaciation? I think I read BMI 15 and under, but there is some argument there.

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[19 Aug 2005|09:56am]

So I was removed from therealdeal_x community because some mod checked out my journal, most of which is friends only. However, I stupidly left one or two as public and in one mentioned that I am trying to revive my anorexia. What the fuck ever. I guess because it's not a pro-anorexic community. I don't have to defend my disease to anyone. I love what it does to me more than life, it makes me more content than anything else on earth. No male has ever been able to satisfy the urge to see that number drop and feel my clothes slip off like water. I can't give it up now. Not when all of this screeching and divorce is happening.

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why do I binge on fruits and vegetables? [18 Aug 2005|11:07pm]

My stepdad and my mom had a massive, overdue fight this evening, complete with excessive use of the word "fuck" for my ten year old brother to hear. As I crouched on my floor in a ball crying, I figured this tense situation would be ideal for getting myself back on track. Tension and stress at home was pretty much how my anorexia started six years ago anyway. My fucking stepdad, the alcoholic dimwit. So, what does my mom do, but take us to her friend's house, where her friend feeds us all dinner. Except she knows I dont eat, so she gives me a bowl of fruit salad, which I eat for no reason. We go home in a few hours and I eat some cooked broccoli. Weigh myself. A few lbs up from this morning. Take twenty or so laxatives because it's all I have left and don't want to waste the money tonight, don't have the spirit in me to go buy more. Twenty isn't enough anymore. I have to take way more than that most days, but what the hell. Maybe they'll work anyway in conjunction with all the fiber from the fruit. What do you guys think? I really hope so. I need to be cleaned out by tomorrow so I can start fresh again, use the painful experience of a miserable family situation to spark my illness again. It's all I have. It's all I want. I have no one but myself and my illness.

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Arghhhhh [18 Aug 2005|04:08pm]

[ mood | angry ]

Oh man I'm so fucken fat why can't it all just go away!!!!!

I hate it so much.....i hate myself

I wish it would just all end and get better i wish i could snap my fingers and i was there god damn it!!!!!

Why must my body be fucked up and fat the way it is???"??

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[17 Aug 2005|05:15pm]

200-300 cals today
have a huge migrane
didnt sleep too welll
i have my period blah.
i have cramps but that could be the laxies too

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[17 Aug 2005|10:08am]

[ mood | bored ]

My boyfriend bought a cross trainer YAY!! So now it will take even less time to get to my goal ( I hope) cos now i can exercise whenever i want!!!

We shall see how it goes

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